Healing Combat Trauma

The Art of War - but Not Sun Tzu's: Three B&W Iconic Images from Iraq, Vietnam and Afghanistan Depict War and Its Toll on the Warrior

Three images to ponder -- three black and white depictions of war and the veteran:

This first image, by the humanitarian photojournalist Zoriah -- currently in Iraq -- is profound, stark and spectacular.  It is also very recent.  Zoriah narrowly survived a bombing in the Anbar province last Thursday.  This is an image he captured from last Monday -- of a young U.S. soldier.  Zoriah writes: "A couple of days ago I went out on a foot patrol in Sadr City with a young a soldier and noticed the tattoo on his arm, featuring a rosary and the words “Forgive Me.”  I asked him what the story behind it was.

He said, “After my first tour in Iraq, I went back home to the states and all my friends called me a murderer and killer.  I guess I started thinking a lot about all the things I had done over here…you know.”

(Zoriah's blog, filled with inescapably riveting images like this one, is linked here.  Stay safe, Zoriah!)                                               

The second image is of a Vietnam-era veteran, standing, head bowed, in front of the Vietnam Memorial in Washington, DC, also known as "The Wall."  It's taken by French Canadian photographer, Patrick-Andre Perron, whose website is here.  Interestingly, on Perron's website, he "illustrates" this photograph with a poem he must particularly like, that he apparently saw on the wall.  We include it here:

"If you are able, save for them a place inside of you and save one backward glance when you are leaving for the places they can no longer go.

Be not ashamed to say you loved them,
though you may or may not have always.
Take what they have taught you with their dying and keep it with your own.

And in that time when men decide and feel safe to call the war insane,
take one moment to embrace those gentle heroes you left behind." 

- Major Michael Davis O'Donnell
1 January 1970, Dak To, Vietnam, Listed as KIA February 7, 1978

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The third image is of Lance Cpl. Nicholas G. Ciccone, USMC, captured by Marine Combat Artist and Warrant Officer Michael D. Fay, whose blog, Fire and Ice, is linked here.  This is a pencil sketch of a young Marine, core-level exhausted after a nine-day firefight in Afghanistan.  Says Fay: This "was the face of Lance Cpl. Ciccone I looked upon inside the freezing gutted remains of Kandahar International Airport in early January 2002. His platoon had just dragged themselves into the terminal building after completing a nine-day combat patrol. They had originally intended to be out for only twelve hours, but found a huge weapons cache and the Taliban wanted it back. I don’t know what happened during those long days, but whatever it was, these Marines had the look. And of them all, Ciccone had it in spades. The drawing shows him the very moment he’s dropped his backpack and removed his helmet. Looking at it now I realize what it was about him — the weight was still there."

Sadly, Lance Cpl. Nicholas G. Ciccone later lost his own battle with PTSD, killing himself in October of 2003. Ciccone's suicide, Fay remarked, "made me acutely aware that not all fatal wounds are physical."

PTSD: (That's Some) Pretty Terrible Sh*t (to Have to) Deal (With), Don't You Think?

Editor's Note: We commemorate the otherwise momentous, historic signing of the GI bill into law today with this little snippet of what life was like for someone who served recently.  For everyone who doesn't "get" what sacrifice is, and that those who've served have earned their accolades and rewards, here's a grunt's-eye view of the experience of combat trauma, and how that relates to PTSD and various other topics in the news.  It's doubtful that any one of us would like to have changed places with him, at such a young age.  Herewith, his story, emphasis mine:

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I'm no Vietnam vet, but a vet of Operation Iraqi Freedom. I turned 18 while in boot camp because I graduated high school at 17. I was discharged early for having "personality disorder" after I went to Iraq.

I was in the Marines, and my MOS was a ground communications electronics technician. A couple months after graduating my training for the job and going to my first unit, I was "volunteered" to join and train with another unit that was leaving soon. The new task I was given was "Mortuary Affairs".

This group was put together with a couple dozen other Marines from other sections. Our job was to go to locations where troops had been killed and not able to be retrieved by the group they were out with due to the fact they were under too much danger or whatever the case. I had no clue the effects this would have on me. It was a horrible experience.

It was not like going and picking up a corpse and that's it. For one, you were in a hot zone, where people were just killed, not just by gunfire.

Here are some brief descriptions of the missions I was a part of...
 

The first one wasn't too bad; the body was actually brought to us at the camp we were at.

 

It was a young male Marine. He was supposedly in a Hummer going somewhere and might not have been wearing his helmet. He had a silver dollar sized hole in the side of his head.

When we get the bodies back the camp we have to take off all materials on the body, and go through and bag each individual body part. It was more of a surreal experience really, I did not know how I was supposed to feel.

Once our troops invaded Fallujah was when things started to get worse. On another of the missions, a truck carrying fuel was crossing a bridge and was shot with an RPG. The truck went off the bridge and fell, the fire burning most of everything.

 

When we went out it was usually just a dozen of us with maybe 2 Hummers of security if we were lucky. For anyone who doesn't know, most the Hummers used were old and poorly maintained/equipped... almost no armor. So we get there and head down to the bottom where the truck fell and we had to pull out burnt bodies from inside of the cabin.

 

It sounds bad, but burnt bodies are almost like burnt food... so perhaps it wasn't as bad as the rest. It did not help our appetite when we had to eat in the same building we processed the bodies in. Our shop was just a medium-sized bunker, no walls or anything so yes we basically ate next to the bodies. It is obvious why some of us didn't eat the meat.

 

The worst mission I went on was when an army tank was traveling down a road and was blown up from a roadside explosive. The bomb was so powerful: you could not identify ANY part of the tank except for the tracks. It had been tossed a couple hundred feet in different directions.

 

It took us I think, about 15 hours to do this mission. There was gunfire when we first arrived but nothing more. I think we picked up a couple thousand pieces of flesh that day. Going through each one individually. They would range from small penny-sized pieces to legs, torsos, heads, feet, testicles, arms, etc.

 

There were a few more missions but we get the idea by now I'm sure. I guess it started to become noticeable that I wasn't doing well. I was taking whole boxes of NyQuil tablets and drinking bottles of medicine to get anything I could out of it at night. I smoked probably a pack of cigarettes a day, which is a lot for me because I have never really smoked more than a couple cigs a day if at all.

 

My officer had me go speak to the chaplain and from there a navy doctor who was a great person to have over there. He pulled strings and had me med-evac'd out of there a few weeks later.

 

In the meantime I had been moved out of my job until I was able to leave. I was harassed for leaving: superiors thought I was just faking to get out.

 

I had become highly depressed and my roommates noticed me screaming sometimes in my sleep.

 

From Iraq I spent a few days at an army hospital in Germany, talking to various doctors and such... going through the process.

 

I was being given pills for depression and for insomnia. Then I made it back to the US and once at my base I was seen by a psychologist. They actually gave me the option to get of the military, so I did.

 

I had been told the process takes several months to year until you finally leave. In the meantime I started drinking daily, and stopped taking the pills they gave me because they seemed to numb my mind and I could not stand it because I have always had such a wonderful and creative mind. It made me feel like a zombie, I could not even create artwork which was my biggest hobby.

 

A month down the road I started having nightmares, very detailed and morbid. A few times I would wake up with tears. I began having suicidal thoughts and crying at least a few times a day. Thank God my best friend was stationed not so far, he saved my life I think.

 

It was hard for me to wake up because of the medicine I had been taking, that’s another reason I stopped it, I was always drained. The first week I was back I never even reported back to my old unit, I didn't know what I was doing.

 

A week later they send somebody to come get me. There, I was harassed and treated like a piece of s%#t some more by my master sergeant. They had me sit in inventory room all day while I struggled to stay awake. I luckily had a very kind staff sergeant in charge of me at the time. He would let me sleep and go home early.

 

I admit I was very lucky in getting out, because it only took me about 2 months until I was officially a civilian again. I was going back home. I stayed with my older sister and her boyfriend at first, because I was not too fond of going back to my parents. My depression got worse and I started to drift further from sanity and comfort; people noticed I was a different person.

 

At this point I started smoking marijuana occasionally. Which was really the only time I felt anything, happy, able to think, speak, talk to people, feel normal.

 

Eventually I moved back with my parents and that's when things got worse for me. I had some additional problems I know was facing, I needed a job, and had people on my back constantly. I had no access to marijuana during this time.

 

My insomnia got to its peak to where I could not sleep AT ALL at night. I also began having more suicidal thoughts, nightmares got worse and I had them ANY time I could sleep which was usually from 7:00 AM to 12:00 PM, began having auditory and visual hallucinations everyday, and constant anxiety.

 

I knew I had PTSD and that the military used "personality disorder" so that they would not take the rap for it.

 

I finally couldn't take the insomnia anymore and was prescribed Ambien, which actually works extremely well and helped get my body back on schedule, only thing is I had to take it for 3 months and then no more because they said it was addictive.

 

So it became difficult without it. I did a long process of seeing doctors and filling out paperwork for the VA and was finally officially a disabled vet due to chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, normally referred to as PTSD.

 

I started to be able to get a hold of marijuana again and when I had it things were more stable. My temper was not out of hand and I could sleep comfortably having less nightmares. At this point I had gone a year or more straight of having nightmares every night.

 

It has been three years now and I am much better. Time has healed me a little and I smoke marijuana as often as I can. I don't have hallucinations anymore, or rarely any nightmares. I do however still have bad anxiety, temper, and depression problems when I'm not high.

 

Another thing I forgot to mention is that PTSD has basically ruined my memory. Since I first showed symptoms until now, my memory does not work nearly as well as it should.

 

I still have major problems concentrating and working sometimes too. It makes interviews and other social activities near impossible for me, as I cannot speak or express myself as I used to. I get very nervous and my mind blanks out sometimes. I cannot say if marijuana will help all my problems, but I can say marijuana helps me feel alive.

 

Being high is the only time I feel good and happy, deep down. I can be around loved ones or any social crowd without tweaking out from anxiety, I can think and operate much more smoothly, I don't have a short temper, and it makes me want to live.

 

The past couple months have been rough on me and I have been going to the VA hospital here to try and get help. The first 4 times I went, they did the same exact thing which was to ask a series of questions, ask me if I want pills and send me home. I kept telling them I did not want pills because I have seen what they have done to people I know and what they have done to me.

 

All I wanted was someone to talk to.

 

After the fourth time of going in there feeling like I wanted to die, they finally got someone for me to talk to. We have just met once so far, but I think it will be good for me.

 

In the meantime I have not been able to smoke recently because I am trying to find another job, which is not going too well and I only have a couple weeks before my current job ends.

 

I have had a few interviews but blow them miserably because it’s getting harder and harder for me to go through the whole thing without my nerves choking me to death. It’s only been a week or two since I smoked last and my temper and depression are already busting through the door. I worry too easily and stress out to the extreme.

 

Take what you will from this story, but I know for a fact marijuana has saved my life numerous times.

 

-- One young former Marine's story, in his own words. Used with permission.

Editor's note: "Mortuary Affairs" was also the detail highly-decorated Marine ("Marine of the Year") Daniel Cotnoir worked in Iraq, before a combination of circumstances, including PTSD, triggered an event in his hometown of Lawrence, Massachusetts -- which got him arrested, and barely escaped conviction.  We have blogged about Daniel Cotnoir's case many times on this blog, going back several years, when it was current.  It's safe to opine, that even within the trauma of war, some things are harder to endure than others.  Our guess would be, mortuary affairs really qualifies for extreme hardship and exposure to things that make PTSD an occupational hazard.

Making an Attempt to "Strip the Fuse" - Initiating Dialogue between Local Police and Veterans

NPR has another great story today, on a few OIF/OEF (Iraq and Afghanistan) combat veterans telling their stories in a public setting, in an attempt to defuse potential conflict with the communities where they live, especially with the police.  The story is called, "Dialogue Bridges Divide between Vets and Police," reported by Libby Lewis, and you can read the story or listen to it, here. It highlights the work being done by Jay White of the Hartford, Connecticut Vet Center, a facility funded by the Department of Veterans Affairs. According to Lewis, "before becoming a counselor, White served two tours in Iraq. The dialogues he moderates are meant to connect veterans with people who have no experience with war, namely people who deal with trouble — like police and emergency rescue personnel. These are the people whom soldiers returning home often find themselves dealing with."  It's great to see necessary, proactive stuff like this.

A surprising statistic, quoted in the story, by Brian Killany, a police crisis negotiator:

"The chances of [veterans] becoming a target group for us to have to deal with as a [police] negotiator is probably better than 50-50.”

Y-I-K-E-S.  Forewarned is forearmed -- no pun intended.  So much better to prepare for this in the way this program is doing, than be surprised by it -- when it's clearly a strong possibililty.

The NPR story also highlights the work of a Connecticut-based group, "Brothers in Arms," which the program says is "run by Iraq veterans with a mission of helping other returning soldiers. They also organize public speaking events to create awareness among civilians about the struggles of war veterans."  Their information is linked here.

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In addition, although not mentioned in the story, there's a great, 10 minute long video available on YouTube, which we blogged about here, by William R. Keating and the Norfolk County (Massachusetts) District Attorney's Office.  It's called "PTSD and Veterans: Beyond the Yellow Ribbon," and part of what it addresses is the re-integration of a combat veteran into his or her community, including the possibility of conflict with the police, and how both sides can manage that.  Well worth watching and bookmarking. The blog post we did about it a year or so ago is linked here, and it includes the video.

(Other counties in Massachusetts and in other states should consider contact William Keating's office and seeing if they can use the video with their constituents.  Information useful for contacting the Norfolk County (Massachusetts) District Attorney's office is linked, here.)

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Recently, we blogged about the similarities that cops and troops share in their exposure to cumulative increments of trauma, which often result -- for either of them -- in PTSD.  Ultimately, cops and trops may find out that they may find out they have more in common than they thought -- in terms of what they've been exposed to in their lines of work -- not just wearing uniforms, working out and carrying guns to work. 

Editor's note: The Hartford, Connecticut Vet Center information is linked here.  The directory lists Jay White but provides no additional contact information for him; undoubtedly, he can be reached the Center.

Healing Hands: Cranio-Sacral Therapy, Veterans and PTSD

Before we leave off talking about Complementary and Alternative Medicine (CAM) therapeutic strategies for dealing with PTSD (usually, in addition to other approaches, not instead of other approaches) -- as we have been discussing lately on this blog, an index to which is linked, here -- it's important to mention one other therapeutic technique: Cranio-Sacral Therapy, developed by Dr. John Upledger (pictured at left).  You'll have to go elswhere -- like the Upledger Institute's website, linked here -- to learn more about the practice -- it would take too long to explain here, because there are several schools of thought on why it might work, and it's a fairly esoteric practice to begin with.  But...an important but...it is a bodywork therapy, akin to massage but not the same as massage, which has shown some effectiveness in improving the symptoms of PTSD.   Digging around on the Upledger Institute's site may help you learn about who practices it in your area of the country, but that is unlikely to be a completely comprehensive list.

For those who believe -- and it surely isn't everyone who does, but many do -- that the physical body "stores" trauma, craniosacral therapy attempts to "release" the stored trauma through the very light, deft touch of the craniosacral therapist.  Not everyone who's been through trauma wants to "talk about it," or "take medications for it" -- for those who are comfortable with a massage-like experience, craniosacral therapy is an opportunity to see if trauma can be cleared, lightly or substantially, using a different method.  (Rumor has it that the Navy and/or the Marine Corps, on the West Coast, is experimenting with using craniosacral therapy to treat PTSD -- more news as that develops.)

Dr. Upledger, and another West Palm Beach, FL-area craniosacral therapist, who I have known for years, and who used to practice together, worked in a novel program years ago to treat Vietnam veterans who were struggling with the effects of PTSD.  In their program were a handful of veterans and at least one medical nurse who had served during Vietnam.  The treatment program allegedly helped some, didn't help some others, and had at least one anomaly as a result: a patient who died in an unrelated car accident, soon after he reported to his family, unfortunately, how much relief he was gaining from the program.  So the results were mixed, but in general, more positive than negative.  (There was even some interest from a famous Hollywood filmmaker, who shall remain anonymous, but who's a big fan of veterans and the Vietnam experience, in filming the experience of veterans undergoing the treatments, but that created controversy for the program, and the idea was eventually dropped.)

Years later, Dr. Upledger did more work with other veterans, and at least one of them, Steve Shumelda, LMT, an ex-military guy with injuries of his own, including PTSD -- was so impressed by the treatments that he gave up whatever he was doing for a living before, and studied craniosacral therapy instead.  He has a practice in South Florida now, and has written about his experience with craniosacral therapy.  You can read more about the Upledger Institute's work with veterans and PTSD, here.

Dr. Upledger has apparently done a video that is available via his Institute on PTSD and veterans and craniosacral therapy.  You can contact their office to see about purchasing a copy.  For additional resources to read up on the topic of craniosacral therapy, veterans and PTSD, click here for a separate blog entry we did recently that consolidates a few in one place.  To read about Vietnam veteran and former Navy corpsman Steve Shumelda, LMT's experience with PTSD and craniosacral therapy, click here.

Mind Body Medicine: Healing the Wounds of War

When I started this blog over two years ago now, I was hoping that somehow James S. Gordon, M.D., and the Center for Mind-Body Medicine which he founded in Washington, DC, would somehow get involved in the prospect of bringing mind-body medicine to the troops.  Gordon is a Harvard-trained psychiatrist, with impeccable credentials, who has a lifetime interest in expanding patient care into new areas, particularly Complementary and Alternative Medicine (CAM), and mind-body medicine in particular.  (Mind-body medicine is a shorthand way of re-combining the two "halves" of medicine perhaps unjustly sundered in an arbitrary Cartesian mind-body split.  Much of Eastern thought, rather than Western, never saw them divided at all.)  In a previous lifetime, where I interviewed luminaries in the natural medicine field, Gordon was a favorite interviewee - smart, genial and with a very forward-thinking grasp of what mind-body medicine could accomplish.  Gordon, who was featured in the Bill Moyers series on PBS, Healing and the Mind, was a frequent lecturer at the Smithsonian Institution in Washington, DC, and for years had served as the head of the White House Commission on Complementary and Alternative Medicine.  He is also a Clinical Professor in the Departments of Psychiatry and Family Medicine at Georgetown University Medical School.

But more to our purposes, when war broke out in Kosovo, he and the Center for Mind-Body Medicine (CMBM) took their methods into the region, creating a program called "Healing the Wounds of War," to help war-torn schoolchildren and their caregivers manage the trauma they had undergone, through a sustained, devastating conflict.  What I was hoping -- and I kept checking the CMBM website periodically to find out -- was that they would leapfrog off their successes with PTSD in Bosnia and Kosovo, and Israel and the Middle East, and develop something geared to PTSD in servicemembers, and the conflicts in Afghanistan and Iraq.  For years, nothing was obvious (yet), but here's some of their success with children in Kosovo.  Notice what symptoms the program helped with, how impressive the statistics are, and make the conceptual leap to how this might help with combat veterans and/or their families:

The clinical efficacy of the CMBM program with traumatized children has been repeatedly demonstrated. In a pilot study in which high school teachers in the Suhareka region of Kosovo used the CMBM model, levels of posttraumatic stress disorder in high school students were reduced from an average of 88% to 38% in only six weeks (read the research, published in Journal of Traumatic Stress, April 2004, linked here). Participants have also reported the following documented effects of CMBM trainings, including: the alleviation of their own stress and trauma; decreases in anxiety and depression; increased optimism; decreased anger; and increased capacity to help others.

You can read more about the program's specific successes, here.  Or, you can read a general overview of the program and what's involved, here.  You can also read Dr. Gordon's bio, here.

PTSD Trauma for Veterans and Their Families is Predictable - "The Generic Effects of Combat"

In an article from Australia, there's a great quote about combat trauma/PTSD, and its very ordinariness.

(The article's topic is how "mental health problems caused by war service afflict veterans' families and children too.)  One of the premises of the article is that, based on a study, "Sons and daughters of Vietnam veterans are three times more likely to commit suicide than those of similar age in the general population (Australian Institute of Health and Welfare 2000, Suicide in Vietnam veterans' children: Supplementary report no.1).  According to the same report, "They are also more likely to die of accidental death, experience depression and abuse alcohol or other drugs."

That's the overall pretext for the article.  However, now comes the excellent quote, with a bit of preamble from the article itself, linked here:

According to Professor Hedley Peach, conducting research into veterans' sons and daughters is vital, not only to examine in detail the reasons behind their poor health but to set up support services that work for them.  He is also eager for doctors to consider war service when treating patients, as in many cases it could help diagnosis ....  Peach, a member of the scientific committee advising the Government on the feasibility study and professorial fellow at the University of Melbourne, says the Government should also consider studying grandchildren of Vietnam veterans to avoid more problems spiralling down through the generations.

''If the sons and daughters have got mental health problems and have young children themselves, what effect will that have on the grandchildren? We have to break the cycle.''

He suggests stressful familial environments could be behind the children's mental health problems, already highlighted by existing research. While many people with mental illness have a genetic predisposition to their condition, veterans were screened for mental illness before they went into the service, making stress a more likely factor in the children's ill health.

''In studies done by clinical psychologists running PTSD clinics for Vietnam veterans, children have reported a high level of dysfunction in families,'' he says. ''When we focused on Agent Orange so much in the past we missed the bigger picture. We are seeing the same sorts of problems in veterans of the Iraq and Gulf Wars, and fighters in World War II are now saying they suffered from the same problems. It is not due to any specific war, it is the generic effect of combat.''

Thanks to Kathie Costos for this reference...

One Great Book: "Home to War - A History of the Vietnam Veterans Movement," by Gerald Nicosia

"The Past Does Not Equal the Future" -- queue Tony Robbins -- well, unless we refuse to learn the copious lessons of the past, in which case it very well might -- or it might make the past look positively enlightened, by comparison.  Another take on the same thing, by the perennial, inveterate quotemeister himself, Ben Franklin: "Experience keeps a dear [expensive] school, but fools will learn in no other."  I'm reading the greatest book right now, recommended by another journalist who's interested in veterans issues -- "Home to War: A History of the Vietnam Veterans Movement," by Gerald Nicosia, linked here.  It's 2 lbs., 10 oz., 689 pages, and roughly 136 cubic inches of nowhere-else-to-be-found material on the actual history of what created the Vietnam veterans' movement, which informs the veterans' rights mov